I just noticed....

So i was rereading some of my old blog posts and i noticed that all of them and i mean ALL OF THEM are about me being tired and how much sleep i got and my school work. I NEED A LIFE!!!! so that way i wont bore you to death when you read my blog. Gosh i am boaring. well off to do some schoolwork! XP

Merry Christmas Eve!

So today is a day in which i am taking a break from forced (kind of ) education! Well not actually, because i'm doing school today, i'm just taking a break at this moment. What did you wish for Christmas? I'm pretty shure that i got two things i wished for (because the package doesnt disguies what is inside) well that and i didnt ask for that much this year, so my family took pity on my lack of desire for material possessions and granted me them! well actually it was kind of the package thing. I'm just rambling on right now because i dont have that much to say. I went for a run last night at about 8:30 it was nice, but really dark and i was the only one out, so i was kind of paranoid about rapists and such. =P But other than that it was good because i could see my breath (it was that cold outside) and when i went to bed last night the window in my room was fogged up because it was warmer inside the house than outside (even though it didnt feel that warm). Does that ever happen at your house? What are you doing this Christmas Eve? I know I asked you that yester day, but you said you were going to sleep, so maybe you have a more detailed idea of what you are going to do today. I dont really have anything more to say, other than what would you like for Christmas? (from me)
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And The Award For Worst Blogger Ever Goes To...

ABBY CARLSON!! Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I, Abby Carlson, am the worst blogger ever. Why, you may ask, I have totally failed to post regularly. (and i just used a ton of commas). On a happier note, I GOT TO TALK TO YOU ON THE PHONE TODAY!!!! even if it was for a short while, 16min and 27sec to be exact, it was still quite lovely and i had forgotten how much of awesome you are. It's been 3months and 29 days since i last saw you!!!!!!! but in a way it seems much longer, though at the same time it seems like just yesterday. Anyways, love ya! merry Christmas! Feliz Navidad (spelling error!)! Joyeux Noel!
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what up?

Hey so i've totally been lacking on blogging this month. I've been busy with school and such, so thank God for Christmas break! I just sent you and email today, Sunday, December 19, 2010 so if you havent checked your email yet, go do that! please. i dont really have anything to write about. i went to church today. the rain sounds like music. i love it. perhaps i shall go outside. my favorite thing to do when it rains at night is stand barefoot in the street in the rain wearing my rain coat and pjs underneath and stare at the reflection of the street light on the asphalt (perhaps a spelling fail) so yeah and then i come back inside after pondering life and change into dry pants. and also put on socks because my toes are rather cold =) so i suppose i shall go do that now. see ya later!

my brother is sitting on the couch...

and it's killing me! i dont know why but im just bugged by the fact that he just sits there and does nothing (he's playing a video game thingy) and that's it (plus i really dont like that he put his foot on the armrest that im using (they dont smell very nice) (the feet not the armrest, though i havent smelled the armrest). anyways i feel like why are you wasting your life playing a game that eventually will ammount to nothing!!! although i feel like my schoolwork will eventually ammount to nothing. when im sixty it wont matter wether i got an A or a D on my paper when i was 13. *sigh* but right now it matters. but video games dont matter right now! so yes i am taking a break from writing a 1,200+ word paper on why tv is bad for you (even though im writing the paper and do truely believe that its bad for you im probably going to watch some tv after i finish it in celeberation and then i will feel guilty for destroying myself and my views of life.) i just spent some time waving my hand infront of samuel's face (but it didnt block the screen) ; he didnt even blink. =P my mother is taking some paperwork to the community college tomorrow for my possible (but doubtful) future professor to sign. anyways the class is full right now but hopefully some people will drop out so i can be a part of the fun! so right now i have this quote by Ralph Waldo Emmerson written on my arm. it says "we aim above the mark so we can hit the mark" i quit like it. it's been there for almost a week now, though im not shure who ralph waldo emmerson is; i shall google him. wikipedia says that he was a transcendentalist, a novelist, a friend of henry david thoreau, a lecturer, and a poet. right now im trying to read war and peace by tolstoy. im only on page 5, but so far it's pretty good =)
In response to your latest post:
I would absloutly love to move up there and be your walking buddy! Do you know if the places you said that they could work are hireing? Todd does accounting & Terese does bookkeeping.
them putting you to sleep sounds scary! (surgery kinda freaks me out; therfore i hope 1 i never have to have it 2 i never have some strange desire to be a surgeon, because it's not the blood that freeks me out, but rather the thought that everything inside would be pulsing. im not shure if my theroy is true, but i dont want to find out)
was the popsicle like an otter pop? I E> those things!
i love christmas trees! for a while ours didnt have lights or ornaments on it so i thought it rather odd looking, but now that it has lovely figurenes hanging from its metal and plastic branches and also colorful dots of light on it, i think it looks much better.
MARSHMELLOWS AWAY!!!!

BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!! (post)

So i felt that it was time for another much needed blog post. =) do you find it odd that when i type i need the keyboard to be slightly slanted away from me (like the edge of the board is not parallel with my stomache) and that when i write i actually prefer to have the paper slanted away from me (same concept) in the opposite direction that i prefer to have the key board slanted in? anyways i was just thinking about that as i was positioning my keyboard. i have to write a persuasive essay. i enjoy writing, but i dont know what to write about (i googled "good topics for persuasive essays" but it was fruitless) so anyways, if i knew what to write about i would probably get cracking on it tonight even though it's not due for a while so i shall make a list of things after i finish this post. my life is a crazy-hetic spiral of school so yeah it's been well, rather boaring to say the least and i feel like most of it is busy work and i feel like i'm probably boaring you right now with my education talk. it's just that i've been behind and christmas break is creeping up on us and i dont want to have do schoolwork during break + i'll be gone during the second week of christmas break and one day of school (i think christmas break should be longer) sorry for my lack of capitalizing things but it's just so much faster to type without capitalizing things. what have you been learning about in school? i think i shall go to the park tomorrow for pe. (creek park) it's very pretty (i'm sure you remember) well i shall stop wasting your time now because it's very possible that you stopped reading this along time ago (the post not the blog) because it concists of boaring school talk. ttfn (ta-ta for now!) E>

hi tina!!!!!!1

so right now i'm IM-ing with you on face book. so in the background i can hear my parents talking and i am wearing my jellybelly hat. i dont think you've seen it before but i love it. anyways i know i've talked about this before and you seemed kinda reluctant but we should visit eachother over easter break. and so yeah if you dont like my brilliant idea i wont bring it up again. *pinky promise* and pinky promises are legit. i dont have alot to talk about because i have no life. have you got my letter yet? i hope so. i also sent jana one. =) anyways love ya lots ma seour!

Tina-chan!

So right now not alot of interesting stuff is going on in my life. =/ i'm listening to an elluminate right now as i write this post. (an elluminate is kinda like attending class virtually) there's only 28 days left in the sememster! yay! i have/had tons of tests this week =P why do they need to know my knoweledge? most of my bangs are long enough to pull back into a pony tail but they stick out so i look like alfalfa. =) i am very tired and feel as though my day has been rather un-productive. =P

OH MY MELTED MARSHMELLOWS!!!!!!

so i got a letter from you yesterday! and for once i put my reply in the mail today (i'm really bad at immeaditly mailing my replies as you know) i took a math test today and i actually got 100%!!!! I'm very happy about this because i failed the mid-unit test and the quiz right before this test. so yeah right now i'm waiting to go to good news club (i dont have to leave until 2). perhaps i shall make lunch! i read your post about your thumb; that's insane! i've never broken anything (bone-wise) unless you count my skull (which frankly, i dont because you dont get to wear a cast or a splint (although i have worn a cast before) so yeah. how is your thumb? what have you been doing with your time now that you dont have gymnastics (though i know you havent for a while)? how is school?
these are my questions.

Greetings from california!

it's currently 54 degrees here and i'm wearing my brown pea coat and i was wearing gloves but it's rather hard to type in gloves so i'm not. this morining i awoke to find frost atop every roof on our street (the only reason i went outside was because i had to put out the trash cans for the trash truck) it was a very blissful sight except for the fact that it was on our grass too which normally i would have been happy about that except for i had to walk across the grass to get to the street making my feet rather cold. i wish it would snow here though. i think it would be beautiful. i suppose that's all i have to say so have a wonderful day! and enjoy your snow if you have any.

Movies!

so i persuaded the mother to take me to the movies to see tangled. she's not really excited about it (she doesnt like going to the movies) but i am! i love the movies i also want to see megamind (wanted to see it since like forever) but going to the movies three times in a week would be alot (i went to see harry potter 7 part1 on Tuesday) so yay! i also played cards with Terese and Toddy (though he told me that I can call him steve because everyone at work does and so do most of his friends). So anyways it was fun we played hearts which is fun with three people but it's better with 4. anyways i should go now

questions. =)

so anyways idk when you'll see this, but here's a bunch of questions that i answered and if you would answer them it would be cool. =)

1. if you could have any super power what would it be? I would want to fly
2. if you could master one skill in anything what would it be? languages, i love languages so i would want to be fluent in every lanuage or i would want the ability to love without holding back.
3. Recurring regret in your life? that i've given the wrong people too much power and the right people not enough
4. a song that gets you every time you hear it? If i die young by the band perry
5. the things that annoy you the most about people? when they lie or are rude to someone else. i rarely let myself care alot if someone is rude to me, i guess it depends on the person.
6.Is ignorance really bliss? i would say in a dangerous situation the less you know the better, other than that no. but i would rather not find out information about someone from someone else i would prefer to hear it from them.
7. what makes you smile? lots of things; my friends, my sisters, jesus, books (if they're funny or clever or i wasnt able to predict them), pictures, memories of my sisters, sometimes my mom.

I really dont know what to put here...

so anyways last night i was thinkining how it had been a really long time since i wrote anything just to write, well i kinda started a story but i havent written much like 1 & 1/2 handwritten pages. so yeah. i decided to try writing poetry because i havent done that since grade school. so here's something that isnt really poetry that i wrote. you do not have to feel obliged to read this btw. =)
Though they slandar me
I will prevail
Though they hate me
I will love
Though they make me insecure
I will be confident
Though they make me want to not care
I will
They can call me names and embarras me
But I will smile
I will choose to see the good in life
To see I have friends who care
I will choose to see that they can knock me down
But I can always get back up
And I will get back up
so yeah sorry if that was lame or anything =/ just felt like doing a blog post but didnt know what to write so this was the perfect sad excuse for a post! =)

3:50am?

so yes it's 3:50am i've been up since 9am this morining and i got less than 5hrs of sleep the night before, yes i am insane. so today i did some french work some LAC work some math and yeah i also went to the library and got some books to read (because i soo need more distractions from my schoolwork) i wore a dress today with tights an open cardigan and some boots (but not the ones i bought when i was up there). we went to cerritos because we had to turn in some more paperwork for my aplication thingy which they've basically accepted me i just have to ask the biology professor to sign a paper saying he's cool with having me in his class. and then see if there's any spots left because biology being a mandadory class tends to fill up quickly. after i finish writing this i'm going to brush my teeth and go to bed. but firs i have to feed my dogs and shut off the school computer. right now i'm basically typing out my thoughts. yes i'm that boaring at 4am. =) so i'm reading this book i got from the library by John Green and it's pretty good i read another book by him that was pretty good there's some language and other stuff in it but other than that the first book i read by him was good but the one i'm reading right now is rather morbid at points so maybe that's just because i'm reading at 1 & 2 in the morning maybe not. so yeah it's morbid-ish but strangely addicting because i want to see if my predictions are right, so far they have been so we shall see... =) but that shall wait until tomorrow my dear sister because right now i am brain dead. i suppose i shall say good bye now. there i said good bye now. hahahaha i'm sooo funny like you know your jealous of my funnie ness. sorry if you're reading this an thinking 'what in the world is this insane person talking about' just know i'm on an adrenalin high because i havent slept that much in a looong time. i should go now

blob!

miss ya! i just spent 2hrs and 15min working on an assignmnet for an elective that was due yesterday and i was supposed to have started it two weeks ago =) but of course me being me i didnt start it until the day after it was due. the class isnt that hard it just takes up alot of time doing tedious things and giving me carpol tunnel =) so yeah im taking a break right now but i wish i didnt have to do more school i'm stil behind in math =P like waaay behind so i'll be spending next week doing math tons of it. tomorrow i have to go to the library to return books and to cerritos to give them my progress report. i'm sorry about me telling you my boaring list of things to do, it's just that i dont have a very interesting/exciting life so yeah. are you doing anything interesting for thanksgiving? i think we're just eating together like me, tere, todd, samuel in the same room sitting around the same table. this shall be a historical event which will go down in the history books and children will wonder how we came out in one peace. like seirously we only eat together for thanksgiving and easter rarely christmas, but i think it has happened in the past. OH! i went to good news club today the munchkins were cute! anyways since i have nothing to talk about i suppose i shall return to my studies. =P
OH! i started another story yesterday (it's been a while since i have) so anyways hopefully i stick with it to the end.

HI!!

hola! como estas? =) so right now i'm kinda tired and i should be doing school but im taking a break. i had some chips, they were nice, but they have now disappeared into the black hole that is my stomache. i want some more. it's rather chilly right now because it's 3am. if you're wondering how i'm on the internet this late it's because i'm on the school computer which doesnt have time blockings but i cant go on sites liike facebook, hulu, or youtube. =( so yeah anyways im sorry this is soo boaring i wanted to write a post but it's not that interesting because i'm not that interesting. so yeah i shall stop wasting your time now. and possibly get more chips.

a response to your post plus me rambling on.

i have yet to try fondant =( i really need to. there's a ton of things on my to do list. right now i'm avoiding doing math homework. it seems like all of your friends including you write books. you should start something like the inklings except for female version. just a thought tho. i feel like my mother suggesting that =P please be honest, when you talked about how your friends are mean to ben would you include me in that. i wont be offended =) anyways i just watched this movie called New In Town with the parents and it's really good. it made me want to eat some tapioka even though i've never had it before. aparently it was made in 09 but i thought it was made in the 90's just because it looked like it wasnt filmed in HD or something like that. anyways if you've seen it or see it sometime my favorite character is blanche she's awesome! =) miss ya! i so wish you were here! i guess i should go and start on my math homework, maybe check my email first. i'm forever procrastinating. =)

OH MY MELTED MARSHMELLOWS!!!!!

so i have decided that instead of saying 'omg' or another variation i'm going to say 'oh my melted marshmellows!' because it's awesome. if you havent already please take note that i have commented on you blog (a multipule of posts actually). anyways right now i'm doing laundry because i havent for about a month (i usually go through EVERYTHING in my closet so that it's completly wiped out and wear my pants at least twice) so anyways i have a bizillion loads to do now =P you know the Gallegar Girls seiries or something like that? i actually checked them out from the library once but never got around to reading them because that was right before i either went to camp or went to visit you and i really havent had time to read much since because when i get a book i like to sit down and read until i finish it and do absloutly NOTHING else, except for eat food because i like to eat when i read and write. i <3 food. I dont like katy perry she's rather 'trashy' and that's kinda being nice, but right now i have a rather suggestive song of her's stuck in my head. i'm not thrilled. i blame dancing with the stars which is a great show minus the risque costumes and occaisionally sugustive songs. anyways when i heard 'i kissed a girl' by her it was stuck in my head for weeks AND IM NOT EVEN GAY! so yeah imagine me singing 'i kissed a girl and i liked it' to myslef in the grocery store because the song is stuck in my head and some dude goes 'oh so you're a lez' IM NOT GAY!!!!! (that didnt really happen but just imagine) so yeah sorry i just dont like her songs, but they're soooo catchy, which kinda makes me hate them more. =) anyways miss ya!

memories...

Do you remember this? we were soo cute!!!! (we meaning you) =) it's crazy to look back. we've grown up alot since then. anyways miss ya!

Today.

so today i went zigzagging (see previous post for deffinintion) with Tere. it was lots of fun. i got 4 pairs of jeans and 1 grey dress and yesterday at target i bought 2 longsleeve shirts because it's been a little chilly and it's going to be REALLY cold in dallas. my bangs are getting really long i havent cut them since before i was up there but they're still not long enough to be able to pull behind my ear which really buggs me! so yeah i dont like them right now. i listened to your church's sermon for the sunday before last sunday (i was behind) yesterday it was good. we ate at Farmer Boys today for lunch; it was good. have you been there before? i just finished talking to Rosie. miss you guys! =( so what's been new with you? i read your post. i quite liked it. it wasnt boaring or anything like that to me. i dont really have anything else to say =/ hope you have a lovely week.

really quick...

so this is going to be a really short post but i just wanted to say that i was feeling rather down and i read your blog and it made me feel a TON like you have no idea better.

c'est vie

HI!!! i miss you! how fairs life in the wonderful world of washington? right now i have this part of a song stuck in my head "dont you worry your pretty little mind people throw rocks at things that shine" and that's all. it's really annoying =P i'm really beind i school in math and french. i dont like math. it's really pointless aside from basic arathmitic. OH! do you know what's really ironic? when a person hears you say something to someone else and they go "that's so unlike you" but they've never spoken to you before. true story. i love it when people think they know you. (and i dont mean that bitterly). On thursday we dont have school so my mom is going to take off work and take me and samuel zigzagging (which is when you hit up a TON of second hand stores it's totally awesome) so i'm really excited about that. wish you were here so we could hang out and stuff. have you heard of the movie tangled? i really want to see it cuz it looks cool, but idk if i will. i get an entire week off for thanksgiving which i'm really looking foreward to. sorry this post is sooo haphazard that's kinda my life right now though. it's finally somewhat cold here (it got to 100 the other day =P). so yeah...i have my candle lit right now it's sitting next to my laptop i like it. i was looking at pictures and videos from august it was soo much fun! thank you again for having me! i miss you soo much! i wish we could visit eachother more often. did you know that gayle carson levine has a blog? i havent read it too much lately because i've been busy but it has alot of advice for writers. i really should write more. like fiction. because i wirte blogs alotish and such. anyways i was thinking about splish splash sploosh again and was trying to remember which one is which. splish is when you both like eachother right? and then is sploosh when you like them? i need to write it down and put it in my friendshp binder. anyways would love to hear from you but i guess i should go now. sorry again for the randomness! love ya! bye

hmm... please dont be depressed because this is rather depressing.

today is not a lovely day. though i am enjoying the weather, i feel like i could burst into tears at any moment, yet i cant for they are trapped behind my eyeballs. i like the word eyeballs it's quite fun to say. my hair is long and wavyish because i slept with it in a braid last night right now i have 1jn 4:18 written on my left forearm. we talked about dating in youthgroup today it was akward because chris avina wasnt there so we had the dude who does worship normally (his name is jonathan) talk about it. and he was totally dodging around the word 'sex' and i was thinking honey just come out and say it because im sure it's akward for you but it's a whole lot more akward when you dance your way around it. so yeah it was very interesting. i'm thinking about going to green hills next week or actually there's two other churches in walking distance that i might try just because every single stinking sunday i'm so emotionally drained and i hate the feeling not because i've been convicted (that's fine) but because people are vicious and treat me like crap and think that im words that i wont repeat. so yeah life is good =) sorry this is so short i feel like it's really short.

Light a candle in the window pane tonight...

I PASSED THE TEST!!!!!!!! so yeah now i just have to get some paperwork done and hopefully i can get into Biology (the class tends to fill up quickly so yeah). anyways i had to let you know that befor i got off onto a tangent. where have you been? perhaps time just seems slower than it really is. i sat next to this guy in my math test he was pretty nice about 19 or so. It was really weird because i was the only gringa there there were some peoples of african descent other than that they were pretty much all latin-american. i dont know why, but i always feel akward when im the only white person in an area (this happens alot when im in LA and stuff) but if there's like one other white person i dont care. is that weird? am i being a racist? anyways to the title of this post. 1. i love that song! 2. I have a candle. in my room. right now. it smells like vanilla. i love it. and it's soo pretty!
my room is such a mess right now (when is it ever not?) and it was SOOOO hot today it reached 100 =P and of course that happens to be the day that i choose to wear a dress with black tights because i feel that the dress is slightly inappropratly short without tights. need less to say, i melted. plus the college was built ages ago so their air conditioning system isnt the greatest. i have a french midterm that i need to finish by friday meaning i have to complete it tomorrow because it was due on monday but the thing with the test totally messed up my schedual. on the other hand im totally caught up in LAC2 so that i can catch myself up in the other areas that im lacking in tomorrow. i have to ask you a question... have you decided who is going where next summer. were you annoyed by my question? has it snowed yet? were you annoyed by that question? tomorrow im going to hang out with rachel, the downside is that it's at 9am =P im so not a morning person.so perhaps i should go to sleep seeing as i have nothing to talk about. OH! i bent over to write something on my desk callendar (its the kind that's huge and sits on your desk) and my bangs (which are longish because im trying to grow them out)got in my candle except i didnt notice until i started to hear noise and realized that the flame was trying to burn my bangs, but luckily my bangs are alive and well, having suffered no major injury i pronounce them free of burnage. so yay!!! i <3 my candle!
MISS YOU SOO MUCH LOVE YOU MORE!!!!
~Abby

Uh... Hi?

Guess what? i miss you so much! I went to cerritos today to take a test to be able to take classes there (i have to take the test because im in highschool and not a junior or seinor) anyways i took the wrong test so i can get financial aid now yay! (that's what the test i took was for) unfortuantanantly yet on the other hand fortunantly im not elligeble for finincail aid because my parents make over the requried ammount. So im going to take the proper test tomorrow at 8:30am (way way too early) and then the other proper test at 10:30am (still too early) so yeah i have to wake up at 6:50 in order to be ready to go ontime =P this should be interesting... anyways i guess i should go to bed. I feel like i havent heard from/ seen you in forever! =( miss ya lots sista!

Update

so i last told you that i had an assignment in RYAP due yesterday i turned it in ontime and got 100% (i dont really remember howmuch it was worth) i didnt end up studying for my vocab test last night but i did today and it was good i got like a 90 (one question! i missed 1 question!) oh well. I actually didnt end up waking up at noon, well acutally i did but then i turned off my alarm clock and went back to bed. i woke up when Cathy called me telling me that she was in her car ready to pick me up =P. I ended up getting ready and then having my mom take me. I also studied my french flash cards today. it was very lovely. OH!!!!!! i listended to CTK's sermon from sunday (you recommended it) and i LOVED IT!!! right now i'm listening to the 'Deep' series cuz i'm all caught up in 'Cringe' and i also listened to 'legacy of love' which was just one random sermon by the youth pastor which i liked but it was targeted more towards adults because it was about how they should be showing teenagers that they care. i agreed with everything he had to say. I'm THINKING about going to a different church were i can be more involved in the youth stuff because Faith doesnt really have that much stuff and about 1% is Bible-based. They really do no out reach stuff, no teaching from scripture, no small groups, no Bible studies. Dont get me wrong, i love Faith to death it's just i feel like i could grow so much more in a church that has youth programs that are Bible-based and that focous on you growing and having a relationship with God. At Faith it's kinda like 'lets have a good time give you some food for thought we'll throw around God's name so we can call ourselves a church youthgroup, but when it comes to helping you grow in your relationship with God, you're on your own'. Which really that attitude helped me to know that my faith is my own and not just people telling me what to believe so it was good for that, but now that i've discovered that i need to be around like-minded people and Faith just doesnt offer that. so who knows, i've been thinking about switching churches for a while and i'm glad that i stuck it out because i need to learn that every time that somthing bad happens i cant just run away, but the point of church is to worship, grow, and have fellowship with other believers. I'd say about 1% of the kids in the youthgroup (including me) actually have a relationship with God outside of church. And that maybe one other person understands that Christianity is not a once a week thing but a lifestyle (not samuel because he understands that, but doesnt even bother going to youthgroup anymore). My problem is i have no idea where i would go to church. any suggestions besides Mars Hill or CTK? both are amazing, but unfortunantly im a minor and therefore custody of me must be given to someone else in order for me to ditch the parents or i could be emancipated, but the parents have to sign a release form and Todd wouldnt go for that because it would ruin his precious image. Forgive me, i am bitter.

hello world

so what's new with you? right now im trying to put off school some more though i did do some work... im just not really in the mood right now (when am i ever?). tomorrow i have to get up and be ready to leave by 2pm; i usually wake up at 1:30 or so, so not really enough time (it would be but i need to shower and my mother doesnt really like it when i shower at night when shes trying to sleep). well i probably should go over my vocabulary words (for english and french) but i really really dont want to or i could work on an assignment for ryap (reaching you academic potential, yeah its a class) that's due by 11:59pm or i could work on a Digital Photography assignment, which really has more to do with editing pictures than taking them. or i could work on math. it really stinks because there's this book Looking For Alaska by John Green that i really want but i have a fine on my library card for both libraries. =P so i cant check anything out at either of them and Tere was kinda mad at me today (not really sure why but honestly people arent that pleasant around here and yes sometimes i join them) so she wouldnt let me use her library card and i dont have any money to pay off my fines (it'll be over $20 for both probably) like seirously i have $4 so i told Terese that i wanted to be able to use my library cards for christmas. Other than that im not really sure what i want. what about you?
ok i've procrastinated enough.

shortest blog post ever. it explains all.

 

Story of my life.

ummm...... *scratches ear and laughs akwardly*

 

I thought i should post this lovely risque picture that you took last summer. I miss you Tina!!!!!!!!! and if anyone else is reading this because they stumbled across this blog here's what i have to say to you: You wish you had these legs. =)

what up?

so i just wanted you to know, in case you forgot or something. The most amazing person in the world is named Tina! And i miss her alot cuz unfortunantly i dont live anywhere near her! so yeah and i only get to see her once a year (i know its so unfair!) so yeah...

soooo....

I've noticed that most (meaning all but one) of my posts are depressing so i've decided to make this one not depressing! YAY!!!!! =) right now its 1:45am and i probably should be studying French but im not because im writing a blog post which is way better!!!! yeah... OH. MY. GOSH!!!!!! I HAVE AMAZING NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!! IT RAINED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it was so beautiful and lovely and i couldnt believe how insane it is to go without it all year and then finally have it! and it rained for like a good 5hrs straight!!!!!! it was such a blissful experience!!!! By the way i need to give a happy birthday shout out to my BFFFFGCCIDDSSSDGCL and sister TINA!!!!! it was her birthday yesterday. SHE'S 14YRS OLD!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so young. like seirously i have no friends. (who are my age. haha you thought i was going to say that i had no friends.) =) I love to google random things just to see what it will come up with. And if i dont know how to spell a word i will type it into google to see how it's supposed to be spelled. I heart Google!!! I hope this post wasnt depressing.

Today is not a lovely day. (btw this contains detail of my social life which isnt that big, read at your own risk)

As indicated by the title, today wasnt so awesome for me. I feel like i might burst into tears at any moment. And if i get into details as to why i probably wont so i'll spare you the details. I didnt sleep much Saturday night like at all. I was up until 3 or after cuz i couldnt sleep cuz i was thinking about Todd and all the junk that's there in our relationship. he talked to me today. it was awkward. So yeah, back to Saturday night; not fun. I woke up at 7 on sunday giving me a total of less than 4hrs of sleep that night. Then Sunday wasnt great because i was crying my eyes out which is cool with me an all to be broken, just not around other people that i kinda have some relationship with. Like its cool with me for me to start bawling my eyes out in the grocery store where i dont know anyone (i've been there) but for me to be around people who know me and who i respect its not cool (cool as in ok.) So yeah i was breaking down during the songs and as you know i sit with the wyncoops (Rachel was there so i sat next to her) and for the most part she didnt notice until the last song (she heard me sniff) and she gave me a hug which was nice. The thing is i have so much respect for them that i do but i dont want them to see me cry like crazy. Anyways they left after first service and miss Gloria wasnt there so i didnt have anyone to hang out with/bugg. So i hung out with a girl who is like a friendly aquantience and another girl of the same relation. Second service didnt stink but it wasnt the greatest. Im not a big fan of the youthgroup but according to Justin they're making some changes that i should like therefore he says i should go during the week too. It would be fine if i had friends but its sooo full of cliques its redicilous and i cant just go up to people and be like hey i like your shirt, how are you, ect, because believe me i've tried. and plus i've grown up with most of these people 50% of which were at one point my friends and then decided to ditch me because i wasnt cool enough for them, which is fine with me.
so today because of my lack of sleep yesterday, i went to bed at 12:30am last night and slept in until a little after 2pm because that's when Tere woke me up. then i watched Gilmore Girls and Chuck until going on Facebook and chatting with Rosie. then i went to boyscouts to pick up samuel, but i stayed in the car cuz i was in my PJ's (!viva la PJ's!) and then i came back to the parental authorities house and started some schoolwork.
my life is so interesting.

people.... who shall forever remain unnamed.... perhaps not forever

there are some people in this world that you love soo much you hate them. those are the people who every time i see them i want to punch them in the face and say 'how could you be doing this to me? how could you be doing this to yourself?' but i dont i just smile and give them a hug. so yeah i just felt like telling someone that.... not exactly sure how often you read this, but yeah =)
just know im not talking about you =)

The Wonders of Blogging

So today i do not feel like doing schoolwork. This morning i woke up around 11-ish and have so far accomplished eating a bowl of ceral, a packet of hot chocolate mix, and a bean and cheese burrito (the type you put in the toaster oven), and i watched 2 episodes of Friends, part of an episode of Chuck (the 1st season is bomb, but after that it stinks), and 1 epsiode of Gilmore Girls (much love! esp cuz Jess is in the season im watching right now). So needless to say i rock at procrastination and i could put off doing school for the rest of my life, but im trying to get a 4.0 this semester so i have to do school sometime. i have a quiz in French2 today =P and in LAC2Honors im studying grammer =P i seirously dont have anything against grammer its just totally boaring cuz they drill this stuff into your head from the time you start preschool so why would they think that anyone (except for ESL students) would need to learn it at this point in their life. I would rather study french grammer. algebra1 is good cuz i learned all this stuff last year. i've been thinking though why do i need to learn all of this stuff? how will this benefit my life? seirously if we were put on this earth to glorify God and make disciples of all nations then why do i need to know what a proper noun is or what x equals?
many apoligies for my haphazard writing =)

Love

So i've been thinking alot for a little over a year about what it means to love someone and alot last night so i went over the attributes of love. Here are the ones that stick out to me; always trusting, always protecting, always percerviering, keeps no record of wrongs. Personally, the first and the last are the hardest for me, regarding those who are hard to love. But as Jesus said, even the Pharasees love those who love them (or something along those lines). I think to live a life of love means to have built up the habit of not boasting, patience, kindness, always hoping, always protecting, always trusting, always persevering, not being envious, not being self-seeking, not being proud, keeping no record of wrongs, not being easily angered, and not being rude that when the opportunity arouses for you to go against those things you dont even think about it you just continue with your life. Alot of times it's difficult to persevere when whomever youre trying to love doesnt seem to care, but that goes hand in hand with always hoping. You know how theres always one chararcter in books that seems larger than life; it's usually because theyre loving because theyre always trusting which alot of the other characters look down on but when your reading youre like i wanna be like that.
so yeah these are my haphazard thoughts on love. many apoligies on my terrible spelling =)
btw i just wanted to write down my thoughts it wasnt like i was trying to lecture you on love =)

Salut!

Bonjour mon amie et bienvenue!
so right now im sitting on the couch in my oversized portland hoodie and my blue polkadot pj pants. im taking a break from school. my french instruckor Monseiour Oliver D has attitude and really is rather unpleasant, thankfully i dont ever have to actually meet him in person (woot-woot!) so yeah. the rest of school is going pretty deecently. i suppose i should be going now because i have nothing else to ramble on about for the moment.